Crush Crush (again)

What is there to dislike? There’s his voice, which many argue is the most beautiful thing about him. But… but… look at those EYES! Are they like solid black? And that hair! Maybe I’ve been obsessed with Andy Samberg recently – not to say that guy looks like him otherwise – but that HAIR! And his FACE! And his SONGS! The guy I imagine in stories – I’m not completely sure what he looks like, but he does the same thing in each one – cheers the other characters up. And maybe sings ‘You Raise Me Up’ to them. In another music video I just made in my head. Yup yup. Well since I can’t play videos from my head here you’ll have to be satisfied by this oh-not-inspiring-at-all video of Josh Groban. While all the girls jump on Twilight actors and Johnny Depp I’ll be over here.

May I point out 2:44, 3:16 on… for your viewing pleasure?

And of course I can’t just mention this modern classic singer/crush without showing more videos…

In the one below you get a LOT of footage of Josh Groban, which makes me even happier…

This type of music is just what I needed. Just submitted an important assignment and am now ready to recharge and tackle more important assignments today. Thank you, Josh!

One more song, which is him singing my current favorite of his live… and flooring me with that performance even more than I already was, if possible…

But one more thing… why are all of my crushes so TALL? Well, I’ve gone from 6’5” to 6’3” to 5’11”… maybe eventually I’ll get them down to where they can see me without needing to kneel, or without me on a chair. Ahhh the joys of five feet flatdom. On the upside, they can’t sneak into buildings through air vents and all. Wait. I’m not saying I have…

Rock and Crushes

I’ve been rendered incapable of doing work for the last two days after spending 20 total hours on this pset that I still could not understand (might have 2/3 problems sent in… if they’ll take it…) and then picking up a new obsession like some girls pick up new handbags. I’m not really making a good case for being ‘different’ or ‘immune to superficiality’ in this post, because… I’m not. Quite the opposite. It’s like I’ve never been twelve.

Okay, fine, so once upon a time I WAS twelve… and that year was when I developed my first crush. On a real person. On my soccer team. But BEFORE that? I had a crush on this character from a movie called ‘The Neverending Story’, Atreyu, who was awesome, saved the world, tried to save his horse, and looked like this:

He's just lost his horse.

I think this early crush must have impacted which ones were my future ones, which were few and far between… because what guys today have hair like that? Or faces… hahaha.

Maybe I thought green eyes were crrr-azy when I was twelve and had a crush on someone that looked a bit like Zac Efron, with bangs and – wait, I don’t even know if they were green because I couldn’t look at him straight for more than .000002 seconds. He was a damn good soccer player too. (I was a damn awful one. What? It was little league. We had practice once a week. He was a year older and totally playing at school or something too.)

Speaking of Zac Efron. Oh, gosh. When I was… I don’t even remember, when exactly was High School Musical a big thing? Right before the Bieber thing happened? Say 3-4 years ago, some aunt (yes, my aunt from Puerto Rico of course) gave me a copy of High School Musical for Christmas when I visited. I was resolved to shove them and the first two Twilight books that I had bought, when I thought that Edward was cool (but Jasper was cooler) in the first book and Jacob was cool in the second, before I tried a few pages of ‘The Host’ and realized that all of Stephenie Meyer’s books advocate HELPLESS-INSENSIBLE-BLIND-TO-REALITY love where the heroines profess their undying love to the ‘heroes’ to the point of becoming SUICIDAL because the guy is ‘my love my life’ and ‘being my own person or just HAVING a real personality is overrated, blah blah blah…’, into a dark dark decrepit corner to be rediscovered in a few years and taken to charity. (On second thought maybe we should have found a paper and DVD-recycling center instead…)

Oh, Zac Efron. For some reason, one day when I had absolutely nothing to do and everyone at school had been talking about THAT scene from HSM, I decided to just watch it to see what it was about. Can’t know how something really is, or dismiss it, without seeing it, right?

I made an attempt to start with my mind as a clean slate. Things were going interestingly enough, and I thought, ‘all of these people are the kinds that would get the leading roles in their middle/high school plays’ – you know what I’m talking about. But it was all tolerably watchable. And then…

That basketball song. I think it was ‘Get Your Head in the Game.’ Just remembering the NAME makes me want to pound my own head on something to un-remember… whatever it was. Maybe now that I’m older and stronger I can try to refresh my memory by finding it on youtube…

“Balls bouncing rhythmically”…

See, I was watching this, at sixteen or seventeen and uninitiated to pop culture (I only knew what movie soundtracks were… no, really), pretending I was one of THOSE girls that reads US Weekly or Seventeen and whatever other tabloid or EVEN Nickelodeon/Disney magazines in my spare time instead of watching horror movies and reading things like Lord of the Rings, Count of Monte Cristo, Animal Farm… (not trying to say that those activities are mutually exclusive, I’m trying to save any morsel of dignity that I can out of all that I’ll lose by the end of this post…)

ANYWAY I was all like, ‘Oh cool! A basketball game, that I’ll be cautiously optimistic about and hope will be heartwarming, fun and inspiring like the ones in that Air Bud movie!’ And then… about halfway in…

Wait, they were practicing for a game, what the heck are they doing now???

What’s up with people jerking their heads like those bobbing toys at :35? Maybe it’s just a one-time thing… oh wait, then they KEEP DOING IT TILL THE END.

Zac at 1:30: ‘this is my ARM’

And then they all start DANCING and then they KEEP DANCING FOR THE REST OF THE SONG.

Me: What happened to the FUCKING GAME?

I felt my masculinity being insulted. Wait, I’m not a guy. But I was expecting GUYS to be PLAYING BASKETBALL dammit. I did not need them to start DANCING IN THE MIDDLE OF THEIR VARSITY PRACTICE.

I did finish, but not before pausing the movie and throwing curses at Zac Efron as I took on the role of the avenger of all males that know what basketball is, everywhere and of any orientation. Besides the ‘I love musicals and girls more than this game even while I’m playing it and hey am I showing enough emotion in these GREEN EYES’ type. Besides those.

Man, and then at the end of the movie all the conflicts get immediately resolved, mean girls become suddenly nice for no reason whatsoever, and then everyone sings together like it’s the end of a girl scout meeting with a bunch of ‘I was the lead in EVERY middle school musical I was in!’ people?

All the idol stars in Asia are starting careers in acting, and then suddenly get contracts to do singing, too. Not so common here, but maybe being in a musical might give that actor both directions to choose from. Apparently there was a really popular song from the musicals going around…

Let’s see if he really had gotten any better by that song, ‘Bet on It.’

Starts off, and I can’t decide whether he wants to sound more like someone at karaoke doing Backstreet Boys or NSYNC. (Two bands I like enough for what they were, but…) Not an extraordinary voice, but there are many dance genre singers that aren’t extraordinary singers, with that same degree of auto tune on them.

So okay, he’s (over) acting again, moving his arms and jumping off rocks and getting into lunges as often as he can. And I’m like… why? Where is he? Since I hadn’t seen the movie I have no idea why he’s outside or where he is. And randomly golfing. So he can ‘work on his swing. Do my OWN thang.’

After the first boring 2.5 minutes, when maybe I’m supposed to relate to him or something, like when he looks at his reflection in the water and saying ‘out on my own, it’s such a scary place, ooo-oo-ooh’, I don’t care until the last part where I laugh and go ‘really?’.

Then he slaps the water – like that does anything – and then he goes RUNNING… wait he stops… oh no now he goes running, wait he’s PRANCING ACROSS A FIELD. With an arm pump in the air and then arms like a ballerina. Most of the guys forced to see this have stopped paying attention by this point. The rest are laughing up the theater and getting kicked out by their girlfriends.

So, no crush on Zac Efron, none on Robert Pattinson (what do people SEE in him?). Or almost anyone else in America’s pop or acting scene.

I turned to asian idols, that often sang and acted, and guess what? Some of them could ACTUALLY ACT! So I had relatively small (but fun) crushes on them. And more so on the straight rock stars or actors. I love the show Supernatural, too, and was totally a ‘Sam girl’ and didn’t find Dean ‘my type’ (whatever THAT means) even if he was cute and Jensen an amazing actor. Unfortunately the guy who plays Sam is an actor and 6’4”. He wouldn’t even see me (5’0”) if I went to a fan convention. Also, when Sam’s personality changed and he became more buff and more of a tough person (and lost his bangs), I no longer had a crush on him. (But I’m loving season 7 so far anyway!)

I told my korean roommate last summer all the celeb guys I had these ‘crushes’ on, and how good they acted/sang/played a sport/whatever – some of them were all pretty different – and she was like ‘You know what? I think you just like guys with talent.’

SO HERE FINALLY is the story of my latest crush.

I was watching some rock song on youtube last Thursday evening. Then this song from this alternative rock band called ‘Midtown’ was on the ‘Suggested Video’ bar. I clicked it. And I kind of liked it. Also listened to ‘Give it Up’, really liked the beginning 40 seconds and this part at 2:30 and the rest was ‘okay’ about.

Thought two of the singers were cute, then heard that they broke up in 2005 and one of them went on to start a band called ‘Cobra Starship’. The guy, Gabriel Saporta, is apparently a vegetarian, a PETA activist, and called an awesome guy by Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy (source wikipedia). I liked DiCaprio after I found out he was an activist, and I like rockers, so this guy looks perfect as a new celeb crush, right?

My first search for Cobra Starship gives me ‘Good Girls go Bad’. I’m all ‘this Midtown guy was the one who did THIS?’ Then I see people saying ‘They were better before! Blah blah blah!’ and decide to check out their first music video from 2005, (Bring It) Snakes on a Plane.

The first half minute I’m comparing the guy (Gabriel) to who he was in Midtown. Dang, he grew up. And spiked his hair. Or something. I’m like, ‘I see why all the commenters were saying he’s attractive…’

But then :44 happens.


Then there’s :48.

Me: *jaw drops to floor*




Back to :22.

Me: That LOOK!

Gabriel Sa-who? (Should I make a Sam and Dean comparison over this?) All the crushes I’ve had up until now are NOTHING compared to this. Do his legs never end? WHY ARE THEY ALWAYS SO TALL?

I found out that this guy is called William Beckett, he’s 6’3”, and he only did this song with Cobra Starship – he’s actually in this band called ‘The Academy Is…’. If I had been into music when I was in middle and early high school and even heard about them I might have died.

It’s kind of sad to me now, because when I started listening to music at like age 17, all the punk and emo stuff was totally my thing. I like his songs, but I would have LOVED THEM and thought they were the world (before disillusionment with age, etc.) if I had known about them when their first albums came out.

And thank goodness – I’m not really into the dance songs that are played at parties (like the ‘Good Girls go Bad’ one) so I’m not really searching for more Cobra Starship songs. But I could give punk and emo a chance. Hell, Fall Out Boy can be fun (Thnx fr th Mmrs!!!!) even if I’m not obsessed with Pete Wentz.

The Academy Is… I respect their songs from their first album a lot, some from the second, and ‘About a Girl’ from their third is more poppy than I would usually listen to, but is fun enough that I could listen to it all day. They’re not some ground-breaking band from the 70’s, but they’re writing their own music the way they want to because they want to, and I respect them for that. (William Beckett is a great lyricist too.) Kind of like Panic at the Disco’s ‘A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out’ – not a new genre of music, but oh so much FUN. I’m not listening to the songs just cause the guy is the hottest thing ever. (Fine, maybe I’m watching the music videos for that reason though.)

I’m liking this song below the more I listen to it. I especially like the fun, fast-paced chorus. And the instrumental at 3:03 – EPIC.

William in the water… William walking backwards and unbreaking the cake… his VOICE… different from his other songs, but I’m amazed that it’s a good song and that people might actually be listening to this for reasons other than getting another chance to stare at the singer.

After watching all those melo-korean dramas with the dying women (yes, almost ALWAYS the women) and then Supernatural where we never go into a hospital (except for the last episode… go new, different season!), I love this hospital scene the best.

From above: ‘Am I gonna die??? Well, son, death will catch up to us all one day but yours is coming faster than ours…’

For below: I’ll be honest… I like the video + song combo more than the song for ‘About a Girl’. I do like the guitar riff leading up to the chorus – it’s a light, catchy song and pretty easy to really like. But dang, all those close-ups on his face and his eyes that aren’t quite brown but that look red-brown… =O I think they could have picked a girl that looked more interesting and made more realistic facial expressions (can I go back to 2009 and audition? Please?, but she fits the height requirement which is key.

Oh and this video (the one I like from the second, ‘Santi’ album) and the Thnx fr th Mmrs clip… and a shirt and necklace (and hair as always) that remind me of Atreyu… It also makes me wonder if William should have been Sam. Cause singers act, right? Oh wait, that’s just in Asia. And High School Musical.

(I really want to see William and Jared just walking on the street somewhere in LA or Vancouver and have a long-haired, 6’3 to 6’4 stare-off.)

And then, because I’m also partly a stalker (wait! Really?), I decide to look for interviews with him… and how freaking nice and genuine is he? And… he rambles and stutters! O_O *relates (to the rambling and ‘you know’s’ in particular)*

Above: He speaks at 1:12 and 2:05; ‘We’re using it as a metaphor for people that have snakelike qualities’ HAHA

This is why I’ll never find a guy in real life. How do you compete with this guy?

Hopefully getting all these thoughts out will help me stop wasting my time on all this so I can get back to work.

Random Attempts to be Productive

Photos above are each from… free if I refer to them =)

So the thing about being productive, is that it’s hard to do if you go about it, erm, randomly…?

Yup. I believe that’s common sense to, maybe, most people. And I have plenty of empirical evidence.

Random is not a very precise term, though – you can’t really be productive when you have 2 hours and a million things you want/have to do and have not quite settled on which one to do.

Let’s go with this example:

– It’s 9:20 PM. I’ve gone to the gym (yes, one thing off the to-do list…!) so I’m sitting at the computer. Had arrived at 5 PM, eaten, and then wasted 2.5 hours distracted by the question – ‘Should I go the gym? Should I run outside? Should I… (repeat)’

– OK so back to 9:20 PM. I start…

— Researching types of brain injuries for my SPN fanfic in progress

— Looking for existing SPN fanfic for ‘ideas’

— Downloading Firefox Web Developer and going around the Drupal site to see exactly where to edit CSS (since the changes I saved in the CSS files I have… aren’t showing up…)

— Looking at the collage of open source pictures of African animals and children (pictured!) I have and want to put into a header and maybe background for this website in Photoshop

— Think out scenes of this OTHER SPN fanfic I’ve had in my head for *cough maybe two or three years cough* until it has at least ten significant characters and romance and a lot of things happening and try to refresh the scenes in my head since I thought of it last summer

— Think out scenes of this NOVEL idea I’ve been telling everyone about that’s been in my head since at least 9th or 10th (or in a vastly different form maybe even 6-8th) grade, and wonder if maybe I could use this idea I had in 10th grade about transformation that I discarded then but think miiiiight work now in it, and dream up more AMVs with my characters to music…

— Realize I have to get my Chinese visa done like this weekend/Wednesday at the LATEST (was going to go today but it was too far!)

— Realize I have to get an interview done for UPOP (MIT sophomore internship program) supposedly by the end of July

— Want to meet two friends in DC maybe tomorrow… but have to contact both of them now, oops

— Visit Dramabeans

— Visit Rebel Souls

— Look for the Hermann Brain Dominance Instrument test I had taken in UPOP, where I had scored 70% right-brained and 30% left-brained, mostly falling into the upper right, ‘creative space cadet’ category and weakest in the lower left, ‘conservative, controlled, sequential, detailed’ quadrant.

I was looking for activities that develop my weak lower left quadrant. Found ‘Assemble a personal property list,’ ‘Find a mistake in a bank statement,’ and ‘Jog, don’t run.’

How do you develop your upper right brain? ‘Run, don’t jog.’ And ‘Invent a ‘gourmet’ dish and actually prepare it.’

…Is it OK if I like hanging out in my right brain?

(This is the report I found, that has that information and some more if you are interested!)

— Realized ‘I had this goal to write EVERY DAY RIGHT (and not just compare plot points and plan out mental AMVs)????’

— Decided to blog.

Now…. website or writing… website or writing…



Thoughts on a Room – Mid July

Yup, I’m writing about those and leaving book reviews for the weekend, after I get my VISA for CHINA! (Playlist at the end!)

Video of the day (there may be anime violence, but what I saw of it was pretty tame):

(Goal #0: WATCH GHOST IN THE SHELL. I listened to the rest of the OSTs on Pandora and they are epic epic EPIC… it Oh anime I have MISSED YOU SO)

Today I was really bad… I got Matchbox pizza (veggie with tomato sauce instead of cheese), this chocolate + passionfruit sorbet (YES) at this organic place called Pitango (by the way it was totally worth it, unlike the #1 gelato place in DC called Dolcezza which for like $4.50 gave me this:

Yup, if I swirled my thumb around in a natural circle/wiggle it would cover the volume made up by that kiddie cup of ice cream. And it wasn’t even sorbet. It was like 70% Valcerona [sic?] dark chocolate. And then I thought Valcerona or whatever was actually wine or something, because it seemed like there was something that wasn’t chocolate or milk in there. It was like… a shot glass? A shot kiddie cup?

Compare and contrast –

Now this one I could hold in the palm of my hand, about. Still not extremely large for the price, but that chocolate sorbet has chocolate cacao BITS that are AMAZING and all of the fruit flavors I tried were like eating the REAL fruit…

(And then I took a pilates – I mean Xtend Barre class – that killed me, my form is still horrendous but I was still dying. And I hadn’t brought water. Aaand then I got a vegan smoothie. And a dark chocolate bar from Trader Joe’s. Didn’t eat it – besides a piece or three – yet!)

New career goal: open a juice/smoothie bar/vegan ice cream/lite healthy meal place that has chocolate sorbet WITH THE CACAO BITS for $3.50 or under, raw ice creams/puddings/brownies, salads like Chop’d under $5, $3.50 all fruit and nut (and maybe veggie) smoothies, the best hummus ever, the best GUACAMOLE ever, vegan samosas and lassis and dosas because they are AWESOME… (maybe whole wheat thin crust pizza too)

(I was reading this book in the bookstore about how we use different skills – feeling, thinking, sensing, perceiving – and how we have a dominant one, and the rest develop around when we turn 12 (#2), 30(#3), and 50 (#4). Or maybe I threw that 30 in there, and we develop #4 when we’re 70 or something. I’m forgetting, but I definitely remember 12 and 50.

Anyway it seems like I am more of an ISFP than an INFP, which means that my own “skills” in order of dominant to weak, according to the book, would be Feeling, Sensing, Intuition, and Thinking. I think realism depends on that last one, and maybe a bit on good intuition too. So I’ve got a ways go to before I start… thinking… =P)

Whoa so this post is called “Thoughts on a Room” – let me get to that.

I kind of felt like trying to paint a picture of an “ideal room” for myself. I feel like I can survive in either world – the world of the electronics where people have rooms or  the world of the tent or tarp – but for now clearly I’m focusing on the former. I was just thinking that in the past I might have well said ‘A tent,’ but that’s going to have to wait. Mountain climbing, Appalachian Trail-ing, and exploring the wilderness are goals on the horizon, but not short-term ones!

So back to this “ideal room”: I was trying to find pictures online of an “ideal room,” but can’t find one that really appeals to me. That’s one reason that I think I’ve developed a sudden interest in design – I’m either super inspired by graphics/artwork that scream out to me (like in games, anime, or in creative music videos) or I get bored by the lack of “that kind of design” in other things (i.e. rooms). I’ve never decorated my rooms before, always trying to keep them sparse (at least on the walls… but still making a HUGE mess) because I didn’t want to define myself too strictly – I wanted to keep myself open. Or something.

But now I know that I want to have a room that has awesome music that inspires me to design/write/or do other productive things. I’m thinking of a green/blue/dark grey low light scheme, with an awesome lounge chair and desk, a computer-turned entertainment center with stereo speakers and a remote, and a neat dark green modern bed and maybe circular carpets or platforms that lead up to the main desk. I really liked what my roommate in my living group last year had going – she had great speakers and played cool techno or trance music. I feel like there are different flavors to trance and techno, and I’m especially a fan of the anime flavor. So my playlist would look something like this:

Can’t find ‘Storm’ by Yoshida Brothers, ‘Carpe Diem’ by Yellow Generation (yes, this is more poppy – but aren’t they good?), or ‘Moratorium’ by Alanis Morisette. By the way, these are mostly Pandora discoveries. From today. From my AKFG ‘Rewrite’ station. =D

What would be a better idea – taking crazy singing and diction lessons and starting a rock/trance band, or doing that health food cafe/restaurant/bar thing?

I think the chances are the same either way. .000002% =D


End of Hiatus! Penitentiary + Energy Conference + China!

Hello! After practically two weeks of inactivity (would have been 10 days but my computer fan broke and Apple kept my computer for FOUR DAYS) I am BACK!!!!!!!

I’m not really sure how to catch up on everything that’s been happening since I last wrote. It’s week 8 out of 11 or 12 in DC.

I’m going to keep it simple because simple posts are fun, and also I started watching this drama called City Hunter like 15 minutes ago… and it looks REALLY good so far… (yes, I did my running today, I’m making a rule of no dramas before exercise… like right now…)

(If these pictures are all different sizes… blame the uploading and “server maintenance!” You had two weeks to do that, wordpress!)

I’ll start off with some snapshots of what’s been happening.

First off…

I’m going to this place…

For an ‘energy trip’, from August 17 to 27th, with other students from MIT and elsewhere. We’ll visit an offshore wind farm, a coal mine, an electric vehicle charging station, the Terracotta Army (there’s some Chinese culture involved), take classes at Xi’an University…

Expect a CHINA feature on this blog, at that time! We’ll see if there’s time to do daily posts about ENERGY! And FOOD! (And err… the rest of China!) And just a shoutout – if anyone has advice on perfecting Chinese vowels in a month, let me know. Maybe I’ll just karaoke Jay Chou songs and be fine since no one Chinese understands what he says anyway. (Like at MIT! Good times!)

All right, more on that later on, now for other news…

July 4th – went to the Eastern State Penitentiary in Philadelphia. It was a jail meant to ‘reform’ prisoners by keeping them in solo cells… for two years. So they could meditate on their sins. Did it work? Well… (what do you think?)

Here’s a typical cell (inmates stayed in it for 23 hours and got an hour to ‘exercise’ in a field (through the door) the same size about as their cell…:


Al Capone was kept here. Look at his cell!

There was also a prisoner that DUG his way out, and several prisoners escaped through the tunnel… (but they were all found pretty soon)

Oh and I learned that what I’m learning at work is RELEVANT in the real world… controllers, anyone? If they can control a bus wash, they can control Death Row too, right? (By the time death row was added, the “penitentiary” had abandoned all pretenses of being one.)

Today, July 13 – Went to the Department of Energy Quadrennial Conference, a series of workshops talking about their energy portfolio!

Most of the morning consisted of ‘we’re trying to make this public and transparent’ and ‘the number one goal here is to fund innovations’ and ‘we need an analysis of where technologies are at or will probably be in 5, 10 years’. There was less of that analysis. But there was a lot of ‘support for innovation!’ As well as talk about the general political barriers/slowness, questions as to how much the DOE can actually do with a shrinking budget, if it’s going to become the next NSF for Energy, etc.

One thing they mentioned was infrastructure – while other countries have ‘made their choice’ as to what infrastructure they want to support (like China, European countries…) we haven’t. Fuel cells, biofuels, electricity… one panelist said ‘we don’t want to pick a winner and have losers’ – which makes sense in an overall portfolio for an immature renewable energy group of technologies, perhaps… but the rest of the panelists said, ‘Hey, we’ve GOT to make some tough decisions here.’ My question is, when will those decisions be made?

Another thing I liked was that panelists said that carbon reduction was a top priority, not just national security or JUST efficiency or lower prices in the short-term or whatnot but CARBON… yes!!!

There are a few videos of the whole conference here!

At work – did a short presentation on my bus wash project, and think it went well!

Running – bought new, lighter shoes, tried to run on the balls of my feet and actually did, for 7 miles on Saturday at 6 on Sunday… (and maybe 4 today… went more ‘natural’ on the last .5 to keep up with my group) But the weekend was awesome because I got to run under this:

That’s my two week update! Now I’m off to figure out how to run Apache, MySQL, and Drupal for REAL, and and and but first watch CITY HUNTER!

GO with the FLOW (band)

I am obsessed with FLOW. Again.

Let me share one of the ways. Let’s go by the moods.

First, want a song that will totally wake you up at work?

Mood: A Screw Loose

I think I’ll LOL at this forever. It’s like a Japanese “Lonely Island.” They’re like “we’re Japanese and have no bulk” and go to a “program”… where they get bodysuits buff and fake tans.

I think Keigo (red shirt) wins at hilariousness with his man-boobs. I think he’s originally the scrawniest, and he’s the most awkward one… it’s SO great.

*LOLing forever*

As someone that admits and owns to her own insanity, seeing others also being my kind of insane brings me into a whole new level of OMGBESTHSIFHERIGHOEAKJFKLHTAGIOWEHGL

Mood: Sentimental aka Better than a Korean Drama

There are so many things I love about this song and video. In terms of the song and its lyrics, even though it could fit into the sentimental/emotional song genre, it is full of energy and a careful optimism. The lyrics could apply to many situations well beyond the video. It’s a perfect song for friends, teachers, when moving, graduating. Or even other kinds of departures. And it also has lines that concern unfinished business, and I take them to mean, “I’ll take this last chance to do what I want to…” which is the meaning that the video capitalizes on.

As for why the video is BETTER THAN A KOREAN DRAMA… in this case I see less as more. Sure, dramas and videos are different, but most dramas use big events to create the conflict – you know, cancer, incest, from rags to riches, revenge, etc. etc. And in Korea their music videos do too. If a Korean video had these lyrics, someone would have a tumor, or if they decided to have a photographer he would end up giving his eyes to the girl he liked who lost them in the music video or something… you know, hypothetically.

But this is a simple story, about taking the last days before departing school and friends and making the most of them… and it’s sparse enough that you can fill in the blanks/create your own story if you want, but the former is the basic premise…

Just LOVE.


Day Trip to NYC – at Stogo

This is for the friend that said she’d read this if it was a food blog…

Went to the best vegan ice cream place in NYC for the first ice cream I’ve had… in at least 30 days! (Even living in hot hot hot DC!)

But what could beat Stogo, that small parlor in the east village? With cupcakes and chocolates and cookies too?

For all vegans and non-vegans out there…


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New Plan: Game DESIGN

That’s right. I got this idea last night after my 2 or so mile run.

Isn’t there an easier way to learn chemistry than a typical MIT class?

What if there was a GAME that could teach you chemistry? Or better yet, that could teach MIT students chemistry?

So… now I have a plan to do an action-adventure game where the player gets to save the world, in different scenarios, on an atomic/molecular level. Involves an avatar-like premise and nuclear stuff and photons, and I’ve been imagining playing it on the Wii with a feel like Super Mario Galaxy, but also action scenes like in Sonic and Shadow (a game on Dreamcast when I was twelve… haven’t seen any good sonic games since the one where Shadow got to skateboard in the city at night… epicccc)… have ideas for teaching about s and d and f orbitals and irregularities, but still trying to figure the rest out…

(have to relearn chemistry)

Just downloaded Unity, which is apparently a “game engine” that’s been used, even in professional games, and you can apparently use Java, C#, or Boo (Python) – I currently know one of those! There’s also UnReal Engine, but I think Unity looks good for now…

Then comes graphic design and actual programming and story-writing/making some videos in between playing parts to keep the story going (since it’s an adventure game)… research CHEMISTRY… figure out Animation 101, 201… 100001…

Anyway goals for the summer: website, game design, triathlon (probably just going to practice by myself instead of trekking half an hour to an hour to two practices a day each way – signed up for PILATES though and have a swimsuit now too!), oh yeah and do well on my actual internship…

One day I’ll move past the goal-making stage and get to the implementation stage. One day. That’s… the goal PLAN.

Vid vid video (not Mario or any Wii games though – try them out yourself! =P)

Wish this could be part of the soundtrack of the game though =D

Habitat Spring Break – Part I (The Ride There)


Wow, I haven’t had real writer’s block in terms of blocking since I started a week or two ago (as you can probably tell), but most of the posts that I’m thinking of writing require more time and thought than I can give them in an hour and eighteen minutes, before midnight – I’m finally giving myself deadlines, even if they’re kinda middle-of-the-night deadlines. It keeps me focused. It’s easy for me to write personal posts and try to make them at least a little entertaining, even if they fail, but posts about “green” politics and book reviews and all… they take time, for research, and just for doing them right. Sure, I’ve finished Oscar Wao, but it would be nice to have a few hours straight to review it and not feel rushed. Perhaps posting times will change? (If I end up waking up earlier…? Or on the weekends?)

What great writers do when they get writer’s block is… plagiarize! (Themselves!) If you’ve gone through the college application process, chances are you’ve recycled or dressed up that essay that got you an A in that English class, or that everyone else you know did. So I’m going to take the journal entries that I wrote to record my week in Birmingham, Alabama, when I built houses with MIT’s Habitat for Humanity group (and Ohio State’s!) over spring break, and post some excerpts. Hopefully they’ll be… entertaining? (Maybe one day I’ll try recreating “entries” for Yosemite, and Yellowstone, and Abu Dhabi though there was apparently a “Terrascope blog”, and Costa Rica… *over-ambition alert* Fine, no promises as to when!)

I think I’ll split this up because otherwise the post would get too long. Guess what’s the topic of the story today? That’s right! BUSES!!!!!! Didn’t see THAT coming did you?

Video of the day:

March 19Traveling to Birmingham, first day

I’m on the bus in some Greyhound station that sucks. I had pulled an all night-er packing, finished my laundry minutes before leaving (and left the rest in the basement), luckily stopped at the C3 cafe/Harvest Market for Clif Z bars and veggie sushi and inari, and took the train and met the two MIT Habitat-ers traveling with me at South Station.

The New York station had a layover of a few hours, so we were able to grab some food. Enough for one meal (our entire ride to Birmingham would be over 24 hours), but I thought we’d have options at DC. And that the station would be nicer than New York’s, which was okay but not like AMAZING (by say Grand Central standards). Well let’s just say we get spoiled by our Northeast bus stations.

I’ve been to DC before – maybe I was imagining the train station, or something. Or a mall thing/train station. But the Greyhounds in D.C., Richmond, Charlotte, and Atlanta were all the same – overpriced unhealthy vending machines, one ‘restaurant’ with the same sausage egg sandwiches and burgers and hot dogs at each one, and bathrooms where all the open stalls were disgusting and pee or blood filled and you waited for the next person to walk out so you could use one of those rare ‘good’ stalls.

One bus I rode didn’t have internet, but the next one had internet AND outlets – a dream come true. For someone who’s working on sending in a late quiz paper. Only thing was, the person who pointed out the outlets to me was crazy. Before I knew that for a fact, I told him basic things like I was doing service with MIT Habitat, to be friendly. He said he was from Harlem, showed me pictures of his girls (girlfriends) on his phone and asked ‘isn’t she hot?’ etc. And then he was like “This is my new cell phone. I broke my old phone hitting my kid with it. He was asking for it. Man, he was asking for it.”

After that I tried to focus on my quiz. But he kept going.

“Your boyfriend ain’t going with you on this Habitat thing? You have a boyfriend?”

“You go to MIT and live in New York? You have a Boston accent.”

“Where you from? Chelsea?”

“I got to visit my cousins in Raleigh. I hate goin’. I can’t stand the South.”

“What you writing, poetry?”

“Friend me on Facebook so we can keep in touch.”

Well, that evening I had a boyfriend, I lived in Chelsea, and I got a lot of that quiz done. And I didn’t have many Facebook friends. Sorry.


May 20 and onwards – in the next posts!