The Perfect School Day

A perfect school day in a perfect world:

6 AM – Wake up, throw on exercise clothes
6:15-8:30 AM – Exercise, maybe a morning run on a good day, 1-2 hours, + travel time + shower + change
8:30 – Breakfast + read books, fiction or non-fiction
10:00 – Policy-making Class/War Psychology Class
11:00 – Computer Game Writing Class/Music Theory Class
12:00-2:00 – Lunch + write LIKE AN AUTHOR
2-4 – Global warming related Classes/Computer game + website design
4-6 – Study and learn shit
6-7 – Dinner
7-9:30 – Chorus/Practice playing for a real BAND
9:30-11 – Write like an AUTHOR
11 – Go to BED

The weekend: Replace class time with study time or free time
The weekend(2): Do a morning run AND afternoon run to prepare for a marathon

…LIKE A BOSS

In case you’re wondering a perfect non-school day would look like…

(In the forest)

3 hours – writing
7 hours – hiking in the jungle, maybe taking pictures/film for a documentary
3 hours – reading
2-3 hours – cooking and whatever
8-9 hours – SLEEP

Stories and Songs

Man, it might be a really bad thing that I found out who William Beckett was almost mid-semester instead of say seven years ago. (Wait… seven years ago I was in eighth grade? What happened to you, time? That’s SO LONG! And here this story I’m writing started in like sixth or seventh grade… *hides in shame because it’s not nearly halfway written YET*)

Anyway William Beckett has this blog and whenever I go there he’s doing things like posting awesome music (Taking Back Sunday? Gotye?), posting awesome books (1984??), or having this Friday Night MOVIE CLUB where he recommends a movie and then watches it… with everyone online who’s virtually ‘watching along’ from their own homes. Haven’t done that yet, but dang! So far have to say that he has good taste.

The Gotye song is one that I particularly LOVE, and that I can relate to in terms of friendships rather than romance (seeing as I’ve never HAD a romance… my life is quite boring). There are some people that I just knew for a long time, maybe even a year at this school, but even after all that time they treat me like a stranger when I see them. Or even if we just had a two week trip together, or an entire class together – some people smile at me and say hi like they are happy and surprised to see me, recognizing me like I recognize them, and we even do a bit of small talk or more before heading on our separate ways.

But sometimes I would try to engage in conversation, say the right thing, ask the right questions, realize no one else was participating or really paying attention, and then be quiet. It was less of an embarrassment to be quiet than rambly, anyway; but more boring. Or sometimes people that I knew and that I would do something late for, whether cleaning my room or arriving to a meeting for a project, would smile and treat me cordially for the next few months but go bad-mouthing me all the while. As if, like in the song, I’d ‘screwed them over’, right?

There are so many cliches and tropes out there, you’d think every possible scenario would be covered in every song you hear or story you listen to, right? But I feel like there are few songs or stories that really capture my experience – haven’t broken up with anyone, haven’t really fallen in love with anyone. The fitting in alt rock songs come close, maybe, but for the most part they assume you’ve already been invited to the party (‘Dance Dance’, ‘The Middle’ from the MV, well…). But getting painted into the wall… now THAT’S something I can remember.

Without further ado here is the wonderful Gotye.

Now one more thing about stories…

I’m FINALLY doing this 750 word a day thing, on 750words.com. I’m focusing on my story now. I’m really excited because I’ve finally got most of the first three or so parts (parts probably equaling thirds of plot of one… or two books) outlined in my notebook and visualized in my head. I’ve got the beginning, the first protagonist’s background, the escape, the problem with society, the magic, the missions, the subplot mystery behind a villain, the truth behind it, the problem with ANOTHER society and a new villain, the injury, the betrayal, the showdown with major water boss, the rescue, the meeting, the attack…

Aaand that’s just part number 1! We haven’t even introduced protagonist #2!

I have parts 2 and 3 much more ‘thought out’ (all the stuff before them is plot I’ve developed over the last year) and my main issue now is fleshing out my villains. I have at least three – maybe four. But they definitely need to be fleshed out.

I am breaking one major rule for fiction. But I’m sure there has to be a quote somewhere out there like this: If you’re going to break a rule, break it boldly. So that’s what I’m doing. I accidentally typed my own name where one of my character’s names was, where a guy was talking to them like ‘Stop asking questions, … (my name)!’ I guess I just thought back to those scenarios I had been in and wrote my name from memory. But that doesn’t change the fact that…

The main character is almost like my avatar.

Almost. For one hideous first draft I had a class look over, one person said, ‘This girl is too perfect. It’s obvious that she’s the hero type. You can’t have perfect characters.’

I’ve realized while brainstorming this that the imperfections that I want to explore in the heroine are… my own. My insecurities. And it’s not cliche at all because no one’s written about them like I’m going to write about them.

And both my protagonist and I have a big crush on the second protagonist. But that’s in part 2. Faarrr away from where I am now, writing wise.

Bottom line: I’m going on a fantasy adventure and no literary or couch potato critic is going to stop me.

Onward!

P.S. A freshman on my floor wants to start a band! We’re going to learn guitar in the fastest time EVER!

4 Day Weekend… from HELL, in HELL

To say that last week was busy would be putting it mildly.

There were four problem sets, three lab reports, and a presentation due over five days. One of those lab reports was 20% of our grade in one class. Needless to say, I only made it to class on Monday (3/3), Wednesday afternoon (so 1/2), Thursday afternoon (so 1/4), and Friday (1/1). Tuesday was just a no go. And Wednesday, I hadn’t eaten before my four hour lab class, so by the time it was 6 PM my stomach was literally tearing a hole in me or something. I have never starved, like three days no food living in poverty starved, but I think I might start buying extra food or something to give to those people on the street. It’s a horrible place to be in.

(It was really strange when I started eating though – couscous – and then try some chickpeas and suddenly the stomach pain gets worse and this feeling like might-faint feeling comes over, like while you’re eating? There’s probably something wrong with that. Never again…)

This happened partly because of my meal plan, which gives me one meal a day, but also leads to me buying less food for myself in the dorm… and then during a busy week, when’s there time to go for a grocery run?

No time to go buy clothes for the fall – no pants other than these lounge-type sweatpants and no wearable sweaters after two days in one of them. No time to thoroughly organize my room, take out the vacuum from the front desk, wash my dishes completely, buy utensils after the last ones broke – I’m up till four working on school. No time to go to my exercise classes in the morning, to go running outside or inside, to wash my face and mouth before rushing to class after three hours of sleep. No time to work on the web design commitments that I had made and wanted to do. No time to find friends and karaoke or just talk with again. No time to read new books, finish Catcher in the Rye, and do my 750 words a day of writing for my novel.

I had time for all of this back working full time. Complain complain complain, right? Is that all I’m doing? I just don’t want a repeat of my ceasefire of passion and activities and constant lateness like last year. I started out well, trying to be on time and make it to every class. I moved to a single in a calm dorm and visited helpful offices at MIT for strategies to manage my time and work effectively (like S^3) in my first few weeks. I was writing down tasks and putting things on a calendar and whatnot. Last week I didn’t even have a phone, headphones, or facebook; and it was still hard to finish everything on time (and most thing got done late).

Enough, enough, there’s work to do, let’s not get stuck in the neverending cycle of IHTFP. I don’t really understand what ’emo’ means, but since there are some bands I enjoy listening to at these times that are called ’emo’, I suppose I might be going in that direction a bit late (after middle and high school…) MUST STOP NOW – Optimism time!

I do have a resolution for the three days of class that I have upcoming…

– Attend them ALLLLLLL
– Eat 2.5-3 meals a day (even a freaking 9 AM APPLE/cereal)
– Be prepared for those two tests coming up
– Get ahead on the next 20% lab report, ecology research paper, and psets (like THIS WEEKEND)
– Kick myself off youtube for REAL (like, seriously)

Hey guess what else I’m doing this weekend?

Web design!

In fact, that’s all I should be doing tonight! For a job! (And then there’s a club that needs a site too… ahhh)

There are other things I could write about, such as

– FINALLY getting a new phone after ~ 2 weeks, as in the iPhone 4 (no S) + the included headphones that ROCK THE BASS OUT

– Two weekends (and one ‘cannot work any longer’ weeknight) of obsessing over “The Academy Is…”, TAI TV, and William Beckett even if my friends call him ‘effeminate’ (and his oh so cool BLOG!), only for him to announce on Saturday that The Academy Is BREAKING UP…….! =( =( =(

And I just got these new headphones that make their songs sound SO MUCH BETTER TOO!!!!!! Even ‘About a Girl!’ Now I love the musical arrangements 1000x more! 😡 😡 (Except the non-chorus part that sounds a bit like Disney. But Will’s awesome vocals make up for it. But with these headphones I’m hearing this song more as a sad song than a purely poppy song, and I LOVE IT MUCH MORE that way. I thin)

– Getting my bicycle free from its rusted lock after MONTHS

But no time to expound because it’s time to perfect four web site designs!

Woo hoo!

Time for my current favorite celeb EVER to cover the song above!

(He cut his hair, and I wasn’t sure what to think until he started singing… He looks AWESOME either way! William Beckett, I’ll follow you and the others wherever you all go after The Academy Is…!)

Progress

This will be the last of those ‘How productive am I being at this random time of day?’ posts for a while – at least a week or two. I’d like to have more interesting content on this site as well, and spreading out similar posts might help me do that. But, like within a chapter of a story (if only I was writing those RIGHT NOW, right?), I can’t just stop before the chapter ends. I’ll try to set a positive note with this post for the rest of the week! =)

So, I decided that I was not ambitious enough last weekend. Allowing myself to get obsessed with an alternative rock star and spending all day in the room are only going to make me say ‘If only…’ when I listen to songs like ‘The Phrase that Pays’ or much less literal ones like the Taratino version of ‘Pistolero’ that just make me want to be, like, THAT adventurous.

Pistolero – ‘I hate robbing banks!’ *BANG BANG BANG BAM*

Anyway I’m going to go right back to building towards goals. With ambition. The next step is realism. And… the work, of course.

Well, I already worked for 4.5 hours straight on a lab report, with a group. Man, I can work 100% better in groups. Goal 1 – work with others a little more often.

But that’s not going to override my goal to become an efficient self-studier, so I did what the masses will never believe. What my friends will never believe.

I blocked YOUTUBE.

Cr-azy, isn’t it? I survived just fine on facebook and youtube over the summer, but I do better when there are no distractions, and no ‘oh I have to change the song’s every FOUR MINUTES. Sure, Safari still has it, but my computer crashes when I try using it, and I feel no temptation. None whatsoever.

Especially since I got my favorites on my computer already… 😉 Thank you, easy to use iTunes! Now if only you had Asian Kung Fu Generation…

Oh and I blocked CRACKED too. It’s a great site though, especially those posts about public bathrooms, Twilight, hipster-ism, and the 10 most baffling foreign horror movies.

Still have this site to procrastinate on though! Not taking that away!

Back to goals. One of those goals is to go back to my Life List and update it regularly; until then I’ll stick with these shorter term, more specifically ONE term ones:

– Write write write every day + participate in meetings + workshops with the Lit society
– Exercise exercise every day
– Design websites for a club and startup
– Chorus! (Learn rhythms, improve sight-reading…)
– Audition for a small part in this term’s musical
– Help organize social events/activities with Sustainability @ MIT
– Get on top of classes

That’s all just a liiiiitle ambitious for someone who spent their Saturday on their computer, no?

Well, I’ll start with the last – getting on top of classes – then other commitments with the websites, then exercise, and see what happens from there. But now I can’t finish everything at the last minute (or five days late) because I have other things to do.

Unfortunately since I can’t go on youtube (and can’t even see the videos from this site – I KNOW!), I’ll have to end here… with a Yosemite picture! Eventually I’ll figure out the music thing but am short of time right now. Finish problem set time!

Freedom (from my room)… Is Near!

Well, no, I HAVE GOTTEN out my room, done laundry, gone grocery shopping, gone to class, two classes left… and I’m still out of my room! *rejoices*

But there are still these two pesky psets to finish. And a lab report and presentation to work on. Boooo.

So there’s this thing called ADD. That I probably don’t have because I never had big attention problems in classes in high school… (except if you asked my Japanese teacher…)

So what do you call it when, with a problem set to get in hand-in-able form before 4 PM or so (in two hours), when you get back to your dorm to work on it at 2 PM, you say ‘Hey! Maybe I’ll go charge my computer at the piano room for a bit, practice a bit, and get to work’, and then end up practicing about 1 and 1/10 songs for 45 minutes?

And earlier: “Hey I’m going to study. But first, I have to reread that Cracked article about how Zac Efron started ‘the Orwellian horror we live in today.’

And now: ‘Hey I’m going to blog, because maybe increasing my self awareness about my distractability will help me… face it!’

And here I was doing so well (better, like, seriously) until that pset took 20 hours of my life and is still giving me 0 out of 10 points until I hand it in… I never got that stuck on anything I did in DC…

Back to work, time to focus for an hour. (Is story-inspiring music the best choice for this moment though…)

Been in my room for 80+ hours straight… +- a class

*expletive* at my not going to ask more questions at hydrology and *expletive* at my obsession with a freaking singer.

Gotta make a game plan for:

– Getting one website online and doing mockups of another by Wednesday
– Getting a pset done by Monday, then another by Tuesday
– A lab report (or two…) by Tuesday
– Getting over my little problem of solidifying my story’s hero’s past in a way that I like, and well WRITING that whole thing…

And I’m not even doing that much this term! Crazy!

I’m going to post some cool vids I found (that are more my style than that singer’s music I mentioned yesterday… don’t know if I HAVE a style really though, these are quite different) and then go do my laundry. And then go grocery shopping. And then sit SOMEWHERE ELSE to finish these hydrology and ecology psets. For REAL. (And I might have gotten out earlier if THAT MOUSE hadn’t gone into my room and woken and kept me up at 5 IN THE MORNING…)

Rock and Crushes

I’ve been rendered incapable of doing work for the last two days after spending 20 total hours on this pset that I still could not understand (might have 2/3 problems sent in… if they’ll take it…) and then picking up a new obsession like some girls pick up new handbags. I’m not really making a good case for being ‘different’ or ‘immune to superficiality’ in this post, because… I’m not. Quite the opposite. It’s like I’ve never been twelve.

Okay, fine, so once upon a time I WAS twelve… and that year was when I developed my first crush. On a real person. On my soccer team. But BEFORE that? I had a crush on this character from a movie called ‘The Neverending Story’, Atreyu, who was awesome, saved the world, tried to save his horse, and looked like this:

He's just lost his horse.

I think this early crush must have impacted which ones were my future ones, which were few and far between… because what guys today have hair like that? Or faces… hahaha.

Maybe I thought green eyes were crrr-azy when I was twelve and had a crush on someone that looked a bit like Zac Efron, with bangs and – wait, I don’t even know if they were green because I couldn’t look at him straight for more than .000002 seconds. He was a damn good soccer player too. (I was a damn awful one. What? It was little league. We had practice once a week. He was a year older and totally playing at school or something too.)

Speaking of Zac Efron. Oh, gosh. When I was… I don’t even remember, when exactly was High School Musical a big thing? Right before the Bieber thing happened? Say 3-4 years ago, some aunt (yes, my aunt from Puerto Rico of course) gave me a copy of High School Musical for Christmas when I visited. I was resolved to shove them and the first two Twilight books that I had bought, when I thought that Edward was cool (but Jasper was cooler) in the first book and Jacob was cool in the second, before I tried a few pages of ‘The Host’ and realized that all of Stephenie Meyer’s books advocate HELPLESS-INSENSIBLE-BLIND-TO-REALITY love where the heroines profess their undying love to the ‘heroes’ to the point of becoming SUICIDAL because the guy is ‘my love my life’ and ‘being my own person or just HAVING a real personality is overrated, blah blah blah…’, into a dark dark decrepit corner to be rediscovered in a few years and taken to charity. (On second thought maybe we should have found a paper and DVD-recycling center instead…)

Oh, Zac Efron. For some reason, one day when I had absolutely nothing to do and everyone at school had been talking about THAT scene from HSM, I decided to just watch it to see what it was about. Can’t know how something really is, or dismiss it, without seeing it, right?

I made an attempt to start with my mind as a clean slate. Things were going interestingly enough, and I thought, ‘all of these people are the kinds that would get the leading roles in their middle/high school plays’ – you know what I’m talking about. But it was all tolerably watchable. And then…

That basketball song. I think it was ‘Get Your Head in the Game.’ Just remembering the NAME makes me want to pound my own head on something to un-remember… whatever it was. Maybe now that I’m older and stronger I can try to refresh my memory by finding it on youtube…

“Balls bouncing rhythmically”…

See, I was watching this, at sixteen or seventeen and uninitiated to pop culture (I only knew what movie soundtracks were… no, really), pretending I was one of THOSE girls that reads US Weekly or Seventeen and whatever other tabloid or EVEN Nickelodeon/Disney magazines in my spare time instead of watching horror movies and reading things like Lord of the Rings, Count of Monte Cristo, Animal Farm… (not trying to say that those activities are mutually exclusive, I’m trying to save any morsel of dignity that I can out of all that I’ll lose by the end of this post…)

ANYWAY I was all like, ‘Oh cool! A basketball game, that I’ll be cautiously optimistic about and hope will be heartwarming, fun and inspiring like the ones in that Air Bud movie!’ And then… about halfway in…

Wait, they were practicing for a game, what the heck are they doing now???

What’s up with people jerking their heads like those bobbing toys at :35? Maybe it’s just a one-time thing… oh wait, then they KEEP DOING IT TILL THE END.

Zac at 1:30: ‘this is my ARM’

And then they all start DANCING and then they KEEP DANCING FOR THE REST OF THE SONG.

Me: What happened to the FUCKING GAME?

I felt my masculinity being insulted. Wait, I’m not a guy. But I was expecting GUYS to be PLAYING BASKETBALL dammit. I did not need them to start DANCING IN THE MIDDLE OF THEIR VARSITY PRACTICE.

I did finish, but not before pausing the movie and throwing curses at Zac Efron as I took on the role of the avenger of all males that know what basketball is, everywhere and of any orientation. Besides the ‘I love musicals and girls more than this game even while I’m playing it and hey am I showing enough emotion in these GREEN EYES’ type. Besides those.

Man, and then at the end of the movie all the conflicts get immediately resolved, mean girls become suddenly nice for no reason whatsoever, and then everyone sings together like it’s the end of a girl scout meeting with a bunch of ‘I was the lead in EVERY middle school musical I was in!’ people?

All the idol stars in Asia are starting careers in acting, and then suddenly get contracts to do singing, too. Not so common here, but maybe being in a musical might give that actor both directions to choose from. Apparently there was a really popular song from the musicals going around…

Let’s see if he really had gotten any better by that song, ‘Bet on It.’

Starts off, and I can’t decide whether he wants to sound more like someone at karaoke doing Backstreet Boys or NSYNC. (Two bands I like enough for what they were, but…) Not an extraordinary voice, but there are many dance genre singers that aren’t extraordinary singers, with that same degree of auto tune on them.

So okay, he’s (over) acting again, moving his arms and jumping off rocks and getting into lunges as often as he can. And I’m like… why? Where is he? Since I hadn’t seen the movie I have no idea why he’s outside or where he is. And randomly golfing. So he can ‘work on his swing. Do my OWN thang.’

After the first boring 2.5 minutes, when maybe I’m supposed to relate to him or something, like when he looks at his reflection in the water and saying ‘out on my own, it’s such a scary place, ooo-oo-ooh’, I don’t care until the last part where I laugh and go ‘really?’.

Then he slaps the water – like that does anything – and then he goes RUNNING… wait he stops… oh no now he goes running, wait he’s PRANCING ACROSS A FIELD. With an arm pump in the air and then arms like a ballerina. Most of the guys forced to see this have stopped paying attention by this point. The rest are laughing up the theater and getting kicked out by their girlfriends.

So, no crush on Zac Efron, none on Robert Pattinson (what do people SEE in him?). Or almost anyone else in America’s pop or acting scene.

I turned to asian idols, that often sang and acted, and guess what? Some of them could ACTUALLY ACT! So I had relatively small (but fun) crushes on them. And more so on the straight rock stars or actors. I love the show Supernatural, too, and was totally a ‘Sam girl’ and didn’t find Dean ‘my type’ (whatever THAT means) even if he was cute and Jensen an amazing actor. Unfortunately the guy who plays Sam is an actor and 6’4”. He wouldn’t even see me (5’0”) if I went to a fan convention. Also, when Sam’s personality changed and he became more buff and more of a tough person (and lost his bangs), I no longer had a crush on him. (But I’m loving season 7 so far anyway!)

I told my korean roommate last summer all the celeb guys I had these ‘crushes’ on, and how good they acted/sang/played a sport/whatever – some of them were all pretty different – and she was like ‘You know what? I think you just like guys with talent.’

SO HERE FINALLY is the story of my latest crush.

I was watching some rock song on youtube last Thursday evening. Then this song from this alternative rock band called ‘Midtown’ was on the ‘Suggested Video’ bar. I clicked it. And I kind of liked it. Also listened to ‘Give it Up’, really liked the beginning 40 seconds and this part at 2:30 and the rest was ‘okay’ about.

Thought two of the singers were cute, then heard that they broke up in 2005 and one of them went on to start a band called ‘Cobra Starship’. The guy, Gabriel Saporta, is apparently a vegetarian, a PETA activist, and called an awesome guy by Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy (source wikipedia). I liked DiCaprio after I found out he was an activist, and I like rockers, so this guy looks perfect as a new celeb crush, right?

My first search for Cobra Starship gives me ‘Good Girls go Bad’. I’m all ‘this Midtown guy was the one who did THIS?’ Then I see people saying ‘They were better before! Blah blah blah!’ and decide to check out their first music video from 2005, (Bring It) Snakes on a Plane.

The first half minute I’m comparing the guy (Gabriel) to who he was in Midtown. Dang, he grew up. And spiked his hair. Or something. I’m like, ‘I see why all the commenters were saying he’s attractive…’

But then :44 happens.

Me: WHO THE FUCK IS THAT GUY?

Then there’s :48.

Me: *jaw drops to floor*

1:38.

Me: He can SMILE LIKE THAT TOO?????

Later

Back to :22.

Me: That LOOK!

Gabriel Sa-who? (Should I make a Sam and Dean comparison over this?) All the crushes I’ve had up until now are NOTHING compared to this. Do his legs never end? WHY ARE THEY ALWAYS SO TALL?

I found out that this guy is called William Beckett, he’s 6’3”, and he only did this song with Cobra Starship – he’s actually in this band called ‘The Academy Is…’. If I had been into music when I was in middle and early high school and even heard about them I might have died.

It’s kind of sad to me now, because when I started listening to music at like age 17, all the punk and emo stuff was totally my thing. I like his songs, but I would have LOVED THEM and thought they were the world (before disillusionment with age, etc.) if I had known about them when their first albums came out.

And thank goodness – I’m not really into the dance songs that are played at parties (like the ‘Good Girls go Bad’ one) so I’m not really searching for more Cobra Starship songs. But I could give punk and emo a chance. Hell, Fall Out Boy can be fun (Thnx fr th Mmrs!!!!) even if I’m not obsessed with Pete Wentz.

The Academy Is… I respect their songs from their first album a lot, some from the second, and ‘About a Girl’ from their third is more poppy than I would usually listen to, but is fun enough that I could listen to it all day. They’re not some ground-breaking band from the 70’s, but they’re writing their own music the way they want to because they want to, and I respect them for that. (William Beckett is a great lyricist too.) Kind of like Panic at the Disco’s ‘A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out’ – not a new genre of music, but oh so much FUN. I’m not listening to the songs just cause the guy is the hottest thing ever. (Fine, maybe I’m watching the music videos for that reason though.)

I’m liking this song below the more I listen to it. I especially like the fun, fast-paced chorus. And the instrumental at 3:03 – EPIC.

William in the water… William walking backwards and unbreaking the cake… his VOICE… different from his other songs, but I’m amazed that it’s a good song and that people might actually be listening to this for reasons other than getting another chance to stare at the singer.

After watching all those melo-korean dramas with the dying women (yes, almost ALWAYS the women) and then Supernatural where we never go into a hospital (except for the last episode… go new, different season!), I love this hospital scene the best.

From above: ‘Am I gonna die??? Well, son, death will catch up to us all one day but yours is coming faster than ours…’

For below: I’ll be honest… I like the video + song combo more than the song for ‘About a Girl’. I do like the guitar riff leading up to the chorus – it’s a light, catchy song and pretty easy to really like. But dang, all those close-ups on his face and his eyes that aren’t quite brown but that look red-brown… =O I think they could have picked a girl that looked more interesting and made more realistic facial expressions (can I go back to 2009 and audition? Please?, but she fits the height requirement which is key.

Oh and this video (the one I like from the second, ‘Santi’ album) and the Thnx fr th Mmrs clip… and a shirt and necklace (and hair as always) that remind me of Atreyu… It also makes me wonder if William should have been Sam. Cause singers act, right? Oh wait, that’s just in Asia. And High School Musical.

(I really want to see William and Jared just walking on the street somewhere in LA or Vancouver and have a long-haired, 6’3 to 6’4 stare-off.)

And then, because I’m also partly a stalker (wait! Really?), I decide to look for interviews with him… and how freaking nice and genuine is he? And… he rambles and stutters! O_O *relates (to the rambling and ‘you know’s’ in particular)*

Above: He speaks at 1:12 and 2:05; ‘We’re using it as a metaphor for people that have snakelike qualities’ HAHA

This is why I’ll never find a guy in real life. How do you compete with this guy?

Hopefully getting all these thoughts out will help me stop wasting my time on all this so I can get back to work.